I love you guys. :)

2013-11-13 22:04:13 by BlazingDragon

Hey all! I'm insanely busy as of late due to college, work, etc, but I wanted to make a news post and express some of the thoughts that have been bouncing around in this head of mine.

First off, I just want to say that you are the best. Yes, you, the person reading this right now. You're awesome!

I would like to thank everyone who has followed my music, left reviews, commented on my posts, messaged me with encouragement, and supported me in my musical endeavors. When the going gets tough and I start to wonder who the heck I am to think someone might like my music, you guys are the force that drives out my doubt and leaves me inspired. I truly mean that. :)

It's funny, really, to think about how many followers I have. I mean, really, I'm a community college student in Kansas. That's right, Kansas (you know, the place where Dorothy lives and people do nothing but watch corn grow). In real life, I'm pretty much like anyone else. I've got friends, a day job, classes, homework, and chores. I constantly wonder what I'm going to do with my life and if I have what it takes to really pursue music. Heck, most of my friends don't even know that I write music!

Out in the 'real world', you might say that I'm your regular, angsty 20-year-old. I've got typical 20-year-old problems, like wondering how to talk to that girl, or trying to figure out how the heck I'm going to pay for college. On Newgrounds though, it's totally different.

I started an account as a 13-year-old, and I was horrified at the prospect of people telling me my music sucked. Hardly knowing anything about music at the time, I wrote a few pieces by relying on pure intuition and finally built the courage to post them. Reviews came in slowly, but they were positive. Almost entirely positive, and getting that kind of feedback was addictive. So I made more. Pretty soon, my music somehow ended up in a few games and flash videos. Even a few big ones. I got more exposure, and I kept making more music. Now, I've received hundreds of thousands of listens on here, over 1,500 reviews, countless messages, and I've made tons of friends and connections.

Some of the reviews that I get blow me away. I've lost track of how many preteens have proclaimed that my musical genius exceeds that of Bach (HA, that's funny!). One guy said that my music gave him the will to live while battling testicular cancer. Others told me that I inspired them to take up piano lessons.

My first inclination used to be telling myself that these people are just joking around or that they must not have even been exposed to good music. Why else would they be giving these kind of comments? Over the years though, I've grown a lot in my musical ability, and I've shrugged off a lot of the silly self-doubt that seems to come with being a teenager. There have been SO many times that I've thought I should stop writing music, but you guys have always been here to prop me up and propel me forward.

It blows my mind to see comments from people around the world. Chile. Argentina. Brazil. Canada. China. The U.K. South Korea. Australia. Finland. The list goes on. Here I am, a regular Joe out in Kansas, and people from all around the world are messaging me and saying how much they love my music. They often include a meek apology about wasting my time, as if I'm some sort of mega-celebrity game music composer who has thousands of letters of fan mail to have my personal secretary sift through. xD

The truth of the matter is that I'm a normal human being like anyone else, and, if I am to be authentic, I often struggle with questions about my future. I've been thinking as of late that perhaps I should stop kidding myself about being a composer, get a 'real' job, and start being 'realistic' about my future. But then I think back to you guys. All the wonderful comments you've left. The faith that you've put in me. And I think to myself, "You know what, Trevor? You can do this. Everyone else believes in you. Maybe you should believe in yourself."

So thank you all for giving me the strength to believe in myself. Life is crazy busy as of late, and I haven't had much time to write music. I haven't given up, though. It might be a couple more months before I really start pumping out more work, but I want to let you all know that Newgrounds is special to me and that I haven't forgotten about it.

Once again, you guys are the best. <3


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2013-11-14 06:05:24

First and foremost, thanks for the heartfelt post, BD. I think you should continue to follow your wants and desires regarding music. I only need to look at what has happened to you over this past year to qualify that statement.

You were in a pretty nasty accident where one (both? can't remember) hands were either broken or severely injured. You battled back from that and used the piano as one of your rehab tools (and gave us great improv pieces to show for it - "For Now, Goodbye" is my fav of those). Someone who has and uses that type of motivation should, indeed, follow up on it. Take care can't wait to hear more from you with what remains of this year and into next year.

~~Theatr (Sho)

BlazingDragon responds:

Hey Sho, thank you for taking the time to read my post and reply. You really inspired me with that!

For a few months after breaking my hand, I was afraid my piano skills would never return. They're now back and even better than before! :)


2013-11-17 12:29:27

Thanks for an inspiring post! It's great that despite your obvious stature of fame you manage to stay this humble. :) Doesn't seem like it's intentional, but this post turned out to be a great marketing tactic too, I'm suddenly struck by a sudden urge to follow and listen to all the musical grandeur you must be producing to receive such great responses. Keep up the great work!

BlazingDragon responds:

Ha! Maybe you are onto something good with this idea of using blogging as a marketing tool. I'll have to start posting more often. xD

I think that I still have a long way to go in terms of humility, but thank you for your kind words. I really appreciate the encouragement!


2013-11-17 15:17:56

Yes, yes I am the best. It took you long enough to figure it out. :D

Ah, so that's who you really are. I like finding out about who people are in the "real world". I'm a 26 year old kid who grew up in the woods in Mississippi, surrounded by chicken houses and cow pastures. My first job was working on a house framing crew. 40 hours a week of sunshine and labour. When I got home from work I would often delve into hours of music practice or computer programming. Now I'm a graduate student studying mechanical engineering. I have far less free time and more stress but I still manage music practice sometimes. I'm definitely doubting the path of life I am on right now. After using my brain to do research I feel like there is nothing left when I come home.

Girls are scary, man. Just tell her how you feel. If she feels the same way, then you will be happy and be inspired to write endearing music. If she never talks to you again, then you will be depressed and inspired to write beautiful sad music. Either way, it is a win-win situation for us, your fans. So go for it!

I love composing and playing music, but I'm more serious about leaving reviews. I have a very critical mind and I'm trying to put it to good use. :)

You really do have a knack for putting emotion into music, and that goes a long way. You're too critical of yourself, but that probably accellerates your learning.

Why the name "BlazingDragon"?

Thanks for being real.

BlazingDragon responds:

House framing sounds rough! I've spent several summers working for my brother's moving business, and I finally decided that manual labor is not for me. Great money, but my degenerative disc told me that the pain wasn't worth it. x_x

Figuring out the right career can be tough. It's nice to have a job that brings a lot of income, but it's not so nice being too busy to enjoy any of it. I took the Myers-Briggs personality test as well as the Clifton StrengthsFinder, and I felt that both gave me a lot of insight into possible career paths. For example, I am very skilled in math and science, but I get the most joy from creative activity. Although I have the mental aptitude to be an engineer, it would really suck the life out of me. Instead, I'm looking for something that will challenge me mentally while allowing me to create and interact with people. These personality tests might not be for everyone, but I think they can really help you to realize what makes you tick and avoid some potentially bad career paths.

You've got a great point about the girl! No matter what happens, I can tell the story through new music. That's what I really like about writing music anyway; telling my stories.

I respect that fact that you leave so many reviews. It's the kind of thing that you don't get a lot of glory for, but it makes a huge impact on people. I wish there were more people like you in that regard.

As for my name... When I was 11-years-old, I decided to make an account on the official Nintendo Nsider Forums (no longer existent). I wanted to be anonymous and thought that dragons were pretty much the coolest thing ever, but almost everything was taken. IceDragon, FireDragon, etc. "BlazingDragon" was the first one I found that wasn't taken. The name stuck, and I used it when I made a newgrounds account as a 12 or 13-year-old.

I kind of hate the name now because it seems a bit childish. I'm a bit embarrassed with people in real life ask me for my website and I say to look up BlazingDragon on Newgrounds. I'm finally at the point where I want to associate my real name with my music, but so many people already know me by this moniker. I'll probably keep it here on newgrounds but go by my real name elsewhere.

Thanks for the thoughtful comment, Krichotomy!


2013-12-15 13:39:53

It's normal... YOU are awesome!! :D Newgrounds is the place where you can express your feelings, in a community where kind people are here to support you. :D
Your music is incredible, really. I love it. :D
Thank you for those proceless moments. :')

BlazingDragon responds:

Thank you, Lumina. Like you said, there are so many kind and supportive people here on Newgrounds, and that is why I love this community! :D


2013-12-28 02:35:43

Late to the game as usual, but I just saw this and now realize how similar our paths are. I too am a 20-y/o who, growing up in a minuscule village (lost in the northern regions of Québec), didn't think I'd amount to much. After a long time learning to play music, I started feeling that merely playing the music wasn't sufficient to let go of all my creativity, and so I stole my father's old laptop which had an ANCIENT copy of Sibelius and fiddled around on it until I was satisfied with what I had made.

Long story short, I ended up posting stuff here after being impressed at all the stuff being put out, and thought exactly what some of your fans think- that is, that they were all professional top-charters who received thousands upon thousands of fan mail. The idea that I had the opportunity to put my stuff besides theirs is what brought me to composition, and later developed my interest in developing and pursuing it as a career.

My point is, if your creative outlet can transfer your passion unto younger generations and make a difference in their life, then I'd say that your entire career choice was a success! I don't get much of that this time around, but the amount of friends and contacts (including you!) I've made through this outlet; the tips and advice I've received and given throughout the years; the opportunities I've had to develop and express my craft; all that, and so much more, is what keep me going in this path.

I truly hope that you get to do what you love most as your primary source of revenue, if only so that you can inspire more people to do the same, but remember this: Whatever happens, know that you've already made a difference in the heart of everyone here!



2014-01-01 11:59:47

I´ll look forward for more of your songs! (if you can, do some videogames song)